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1 wanted to face the music

[23 Feb 2006|11:48pm]

[ mood | le tired ]

i couldn't explain everything if i tried right now.
wouldn't care to anyways.
if you don't know whats going on with me without livejournal,
i'm sure there's good reason to it.
so anyways..

name three scents you love:
1. honeysuckle
2. sweet & sour [margarita mix]
3. #5 chanel

name four things that you have done today:
1. final auditions for man a la manche
2. fell down the same set of stairs twice, and then slipped and ate it on the auditorium ramp
3. hung out with marissa
4. food lion with koenigga

name four drinks you regularly drink:
1. water
2. coke zero
3. capri suns
4. slurpees

what color socks are you wearing? black

what time did you wake up today? fivefifteen

current clothes? crew pajama pants and sweatshirt, whalebone tee

least favorite place to be? in a boring study block

favorite colors? i like them allll

how tall are you? five six ; five seven ?

current favorite word/saying? "ahaha. 'the heat' is so fetchhhh"

[Firsts]

First best friend: forest and parker

First break-up: forest and parker!

First enemy: dog across the street.. and JAWS

[RELATIONSHIPS]

01. Who are your best friends? i don't like to pick favorites

02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? negative

[FAVORITE]

01. food: green beans! i'm weird, laugh chuckle chuckle

02. sports: to watch - rugby

[HAVEYOUEVER]

01. given anyone a bath?: kittens

02. smoked? yes

03. bungee jumped? kings dominion bungee trampoliiinees

04. made yourself throw up? drunk

05. skinny dipped? yes

06: ever been in love? L O ashleybissell V E.. have now.

07. pictured your crush naked? i picture everyone naked

08. actually seen your crush naked?

10. lied? yes

11. fallen for your best friend? yes

12. been rejected? yes

13. rejected someone? yes

14. gotten drunk? yes

[CURRENT]

make-up: none

favorite artist: myself

[LAST PERSON]

you touched: cera

you IMed: freddyy

you kissed: ha. ha.

[ARE YOU ]

understanding: yes

open-minded: yes

arrogant: deffinition?

interesting: your call

hungry: no. for once.

smart: booksmart.

moody: not particularly

organized: yes

bored easily: easily amused.

angry: can be

sad: can be

trusting: yes

talkative: yes

[RANDOM]

in the morning i am: showering

all i need is: what i got

love: to my hombres

I dream about: people i know, and weird shit happening

last person you danced with: everyone

who makes you smile: everyone

who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: i've always got funny feelings

[DO YOU EVER]
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: ha. ha. ha. that someone? i wonder if that's a screenname..

wish you were younger: i can act as young as i want, and be as old as i am

[NUMBER]

of times i have had my heart broken: i aint dead.

of hearts i have broken: two actually. so i've been told, atleast.

of tight friends: ALL MY FRIENDS ARE LOOOOSE [ha.ha.ha]

of cds: not so many, i have my computer, and my sister.

of scars on body: hahaha.. "the bermuda scar-trangle."

five things to win my heart:

1. i'm dead and
2. someone needs an organ
3. to survive. so
4. i hope they will have
5. weird dreams of me.

Three things I do everyday :

1. eat
2. sleep
3. breathe

something I'm trying not to do right now: preface and chapter onee.

6 wanted to face the music

[04 Jan 2006|05:43pm]

[ mood | . ]

snowboarding accident
crutches
ankle cast thing.
imcool.
<3

10 wanted to face the music

[29 Dec 2005|01:56pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

Ew. So last night i had one of those dreams where my parents died. This one was different though. I'll explain in full detail. It made me cry for an hour after I woke up. I think it has something to do with my parents splitting up, and me living with my dad, not being able to see my mom as much as I would like to. And I always feel like my momdoesn't get enough attention from her kids, and only gets stressed.

AT THE POOL AREA
Random Guy: Your dad is gunna die today, He'es real sick. And, your mom will go Monday.
Mom:Thank you very much sir.
Me:[WTF!? Oh my God! look on face. Tears in eyes]
Dad:[Laying down, we're around himhugging && taking care of him]

LATER ON THAT DAY
Day goes on normally like nothing is gunna happen
I forgot about the whole death thing.

GREY SKY, GREY EVERYTHING, IN THE WOODS, DADS HOUSE & MOMS HOUSE STANDING DIAGNAL FROM EACHOTHER
All of the trees and houses fall
I go running to find both of my parents.
I only find my dad, I hold him, then I hear mom scream, and it kills me that I can't find her and let her know that I care about her, and not just dad.
So I'm holding dad, we're on a wall or something thats falling, and for some reason it takes a really really long time for it to hit the ground, although it's falling so fast that everything is swirling behind us.
I try as best I could to send my last words to my dad, and how I'm sorry for all the times i haven't listened to him, and the times I've pissed him off, and that I love him and that I'm gunna miss him so much, and that I really don't want him to go, because I'm not ready.
We keep falling, he tells me he loves me, then we hit the ground.
Dad dissapeared. I knew what had happened.
I really wished I knew where mom was, If she was still alive, and I had wished that she knew I wasn't picking favorites, and that I really wanted to give her a hug and tell her I love her. But I had no idea where she was, and felt terrible that if she did have to go, that she went alone. Feeling unwanted, unloved.

SO I END UP AT MY AUNT LAMONICA'S FRIEND'S HOUSE WITH HER TWO KIDS, MAYLEE AND SAMMY
I'm in the house, and Maylee tried to show me how big it was, "And that's only the bathroom!".. Anyways. We end up in the bedroom, which by the way wraps around the entire house, with a huge bed on every wall, and me and Sammy lay down. Aunt Lamonica made Maylee and Sammy go somewhere with them, and they leave.
I go into the bathroom, and look in the mirror.. Dad's ghost appears behind me, puts his arms around me.
"You're getting so big."
I loose it. Break down, wake up, break down again.
I woke up at 12:30 and im still really shook up.

I hate dreams like this.
Comment or something.

6 wanted to face the music

[24 Jun 2005|12:51am]

[ mood | ehh meh. bed time. ]

well yeah im pretty stoked cause im going to busch gardens. who wants to come.

annnd im also pretty stoked on the fact that:

:i get my own room:
:still stoked on dad geting his social security back:
:moving around augustish, same district:
:my kitten is cute:
:i made new friends, har har:
:andd that im cool:

so this is shibby. not too stoked on the fact that:

:parents officially seperating:
:this bug is annoying me:
:my AIM wont work unless i do this gay system suit five thing:
:its cold in here:
:i didnt hang out with bradley on teusday:

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